Me? Not so much. I really thought about taking the 5th this week, then, I decided that I’ve been open and honest with y’all – and, thereby, myself – this whole journey, so there’s no sense changing that now.
So this week was a first for me…and not in a good way. For the first time since I began my weight-loss journey, I started this month heavier than I started last month.
That means that not only did I stagnate last month, but I gained. My weigh-in this week was 136, four pounds heavier than I started last month.
Yes, I’m disappointed. I started to use the word disgusted, but I didn’t like that word. Disgusted gives the impression of self-loathing and complete repulsion. Those feelings were for when I was morbidly obese. They’re not for now when I’m so close to my goal weight – when I’m at a weight I seriously never thought I’d see again.
I’m disappointed. I hate that I wasted time that I could have been using to get closer to my goal weight. However, at this stage in the game, I know stuff like this happens. I haven’t failed; I’ve had a set-back. It’s not a failure unless I quit.
Quitting is not an option.
I think that my gain this week is a result of three things:
- Vacation indulgence catching up a bit on vacation, which I don’t feel bad about at all
- Pushing the envelope on my eating last week, which I don’t feel too good about
- Slacking off on my workout routine a bit
And, of course, there was the whole attempt at eating more intuitively and not tracking my food like I should. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I know…but I so want to be able to do that. Obviously, however, I’m not going to be able to until I’ve reached my goal weight and worked on maintaining for awhile.
So, I’m back to tracking calories. I’m back to working out more intensely. And, I’m keeping a closer eye on my snacking.
From the Made to Crave webcast, “A set-back is just a set-up for a come-back.”
I’ll tell you this right now: I will report a loss next week and I will be closer to my goal weight at the start of next month, not farther away.
Do or do not. There is no try.