Monday, September 26, 2011

I Never Dreamed

I had such a surreal experience at church yesterday. I had three different people stop me at three different times and say essentially the same thing to me, resulting in basically the same conversation.

Wow! You’re looking great. So, you’re done, right? You’re not trying to lose any more weight.

Well, actually, I’ve got around 10 pounds to go.

{Insert look of concern} You’d better be careful. You don’t want to lose too much weight. Have you talked to your doctor about that?

I had a health risk assessment last week. My BMI is still a little high. Normal is 18-25 and I’m at 26.5.

Really? Your BMI is still high?

Yeah, it’s my height. It’s because I’m so short.

Yeah, but you don’t want to lose too much.

No, but I do want to get into the normal range for my BMI. I want to reach my goal weight, just to see what it looks and feels like. I want to be able to say that I did it. If I get there and it feels unhealthy or hard to maintain, I’d be okay with gaining a few pounds. I’m happy where I am now, but I would like to reach my goal weight. I’m hoping the last ten pounds come off my thighs.

Well, okay, but you be careful. You don’t want to be unhealthy.

Seriously? It was less than 2 years ago that people were concerned about my health as relates to my weight for an entirely different reason. My poor husband was afraid I was going to have a heart attack or develop Type 2 diabetes.

Now, I’ve got people worried that I’m trying to lose too much weight. I can’t even tell you what a surreal feeling that is.

I can tell you that it made my day! First of all, it’s just nice to know that people care about you. Then, there is the fact that people see me as being trim and at a healthy weight now. I often still have trouble seeing that myself, focusing instead on my still-heavy thighs. (I’ve still got a pudgy belly, too, but I can live with that. I’m 41 years old and have given birth to three kids. That’s to be expected.)

It’s so fun that I’m starting to meet people who have never known me as fat. It’s fun to see people’s reactions when I tell them how much I’ve lost. I’ve even started wondering if I want to tell people. Maybe I should just enjoy being this new, healthy-sized person. I am proud of my accomplishment, though, and I do want to encourage other people who want to lose weight.

If you’re reading this and you’re just starting on your journey – or maybe you’re trying to get psyched up to start losing weight – I just want you to know that you can do this! I know it seems hard and the journey looks long and you think you’ll never get there, but time goes by so quickly and it is so worth the effort. The things that feel like sacrifices now won’t feel that way forever.

Even those things that may temporarily feel like a sacrifice won’t feel that way for long. Last night, I did not want to get on the treadmill and run. I hate doing long runs on the treadmill. Somewhere around mile 3, however, I realized that I felt really good. I found a pace that left me feeling stronger and better than I had in a long while. I felt like I could run forever and was so glad that I’d made myself do something that I hadn’t really wanted to do.

What’s encouraged you in your weight-loss lately? What sacrifice have you made that turned out to feel more like empowerment than sacrifice?

Do or do not. There is no try.


 

7 comments:

  1. Thanks for the post.  I'm discouraged with weight loss efforts and sometimes feel like it isn't even worth it.  Struggling to find time to excercise, find ways to eat healthy, and stay motivated sometimes just are all too overwhelming.  Your posts are very encouraging and I appreicate them!

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  2. that is completely awesome, Kris! What a great "problem" to have--not loosing too much weight. :D

    I am so excited for seeing family in the next few weeks, because we moved in May and I started losing in June, and I haven't seen anyone who would notice my -12lbs (besides my husband).  My dad and stepmom are coming to visit next weekend, and my IL's next month, though.  I hope they notice!

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  3. I am so happy for you Kris.  I have walked in your shoes and thought such similar thoughts!  What I do know is that it takes much longer for us to change on the inside than on the outside.  My part of the journey now is working on the inside.  The inner critic.  Still seeing myself as heavy.  It takes time, but it is possible to change!  Losing a lot of weight has taught me that ANYTHING is possible if you want it badly enough!
    I too want to lose some weight from my thighs- and have made peace with my belly.  All I have to do is look at my daughter when I am feeling less than happy with my "pooch" and I smile!

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  4. I wrote about this yesterday, but I'll share here too.

    I am encouraged by the fact that I finally passed the 25 pound mark and my hubby passed the 50 pound mark. I am intentionally choosing to focus on all the changes I have made rather than how far I have to go.

    As I was writing my blog yesterday I had a bit of an aha moment that helped me to see how God is breaking the chains that food has on me. I (usually) have stopped assigning value to food and it has helped take the guilt associated with food away. If I want to enjoy a treat I enjoy it, without hating myself about it afterwards. I also don't let that one treat send me into a week-long binge. I enjoy it in the moment and I move on to the next healthy thing. It doesn't ruin me like it used to. I am so thankful for that and I know it's only something God Himself could accomplish!

    What sacrifices have I made? I guess giving up some of my favorite foods/restaurants would be considered sacrifices, but really it doesn't feel like it. It's just something I needed to do to help break those chains. That doesn't mean I deprive myself, it just means I am more intentional about what I put into my body. It's kinda fun actually!

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  5. It's always so exciting when someone notices your weight loss. I hope they notice, too!

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  6. Isn't it crazy how we still have trouble seeing ourselves as being a healthy weight? I'm bad about asking my husband or my kids, "Am I thinner than her, heavier, or about the same size?" It's not really that I'm trying to compare as much as I'm trying to visualize how I look. You would think that, after losing a significant amount of weight, we'd just be so happy to no longer be obese that we'd quit obsessing over it. I hope the obsessing stops soon. ;-)

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  7. Love your thoughts, Lisa! I agree completely. That kind of thinking is why I am so confident that you are going to reach your weight-loss goals. You are breaking those mental chains of bondage and replacing all those obsessive thoughts about food and deprivation with healthy thoughts that you can maintain for a lifetime. You are awesome! Thanks for sharing the mental process. It's such a great reminder.

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