Before I get into today's post, I just have to say it happened yesterday! A huge milestone that I've really been looking forward to. Can you guess what "it" was? First person to guess wins...well, the satisfaction of knowing that you were right. That's a good feeling, right? Almost as good as I felt when "it" happened. Make your guess and tomorrow I'll let you know who was right.
Have you ever been out somewhere and noticed a thin person and felt a little like growling at them? Once or twice or a few hundred times, maybe? Jealousy is not a pretty thing.
A couple of weeks ago we were out and I found myself thinking that, to anyone who doesn't know me, I just look like a fat girl. I mean, people who don't know me or see me regularly don't know that I've been losing weight and, if you don't know where I started, you don't know that I'm not as fat a fat girl as I used to be.
There's a guy at the Y who works out all the time. He gets on the elliptical or treadmill and just goes for broke, pouring all he's got into it...and pouring a lot of sweat, too, incidentally. Remember "ugly naked guy" from Friends? Brianna calls this guy "gross sweaty guy." Anyway, I've thought several times that I'd love to ask him how much weight he's lost because there's no way that he's not lost some serious weight moving like he does.
So back to those skinny people. It hit me that day that I was thinking about looking like a fat girl that when I'm at my goal weight and we're out, anyone who doesn't know me will just see a thin person. They won't look at me and be shocked at how much weight I've lost; they'll just look at me and see a skinny girl. And, maybe some fat girl will want to growl at me.
But, you know what I'll know? I'll know that I didn't get that way by random genetic chance (because I don't believe in that anyway) or because I have some killer metabolism. I'll know that I got that way because I worked hard for it...and maybe some of those skinny girls I see have worked hard to be that way, too. So, maybe, instead of being jealous, I should just be impressed that they'd made good choices for their bodies and their health. And, maybe, I should just smile and know that I'll be there soon.